Well school is over and I will be home for a few weeks. Not that this is at all exciting to me. It seems like every time I come home I am just constantly worrying about what things are going to be like when I get back. I have a feeling everything is going to be different. When I go back for June I am scared that he will not want to see me...and it's not the fact that we won't see eachother for a few months that upsets me it's the priniple of not wanting to make the effort to see me. I get it, I understand that being home is fun and exciting for him, his life is different than mine. But I was under the impression that what we had going was fun and exciting too. I thought that he was beginning to realize that this could work and that what we feel for eachother is real..but maybe that's just me getting ahead of myself again...like always.

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This is me standing in the arch of the door Hating that look on your face That says there's another fool like me There's one born every minute.